If you want recoil, and reasonably economical handloading, here's your answer,....
Get a Ruger No.3 in .45-70.
The gun is very light (about 6lbs), short, came from the factory with a curved steel buttplate, and will handle max handloads of a 350gr @2200fps.
That combination of light gun, masochist's buttplate and heavy handloads should give you all the recoil you need to keep your addiction fed, at a reasonable cost.
Or, you could go for a custom .458Win at 7.5lbs...recommend a replacement stock be available if you go that route,...
