Glad to hear your anxiety is at an all time low. I still get anxious about chambering a round in the house just to cycle it through without touching the trigger, but then again I am a brand spanking new gun owner of all of about 3 months and I've only fired a gun a grand total of 6 times. So this is all new to me.
I am looking into getting a carry piece now and it is going to be an uphill thing for me as well to prep myself mentally for carrying. Hopefully with more handling and one or two training classes my confidence will be such that I can feel good while carrying to protect myself and family as opposed to worrying that I may shoot myself.
I'm glad this thread came up when it did because it has helped my outlook on carrying as well.