Boogieman, your right to think you need a 12 step program. You are already on your way. The first step is admitting that you have a problem, which you just did. And I am here fir you if you need support in your program. Now is the time for
step 2. Find a way to buy more ammo: sell something you don't need anymore ( kids maybe
)
step 3 get to the range any way you can ( hitch hiking is safe when your armed )
step 4. Well you get the idea, and i am still here for you. I love my 454.
ETA: start handloading its cheaper.