TunnelRat, I don't feel your pain but I do feel your confusion. So has two pages of this thread shed any light on your "dilemma?"
You can get a lot with a smile but you can get a lot more with a smile and a gun...Al Capone
On different calibers for self-defense: If you can hit what you aim at it doesn't matter...if you can't it doesn't matter. So, it doesn't matter...Me