Dakota, are you absolutely sure that this gun fits your hand correctly? You might want to take a look at this page
of pax' website -- it has some good information about making sure you can get the right grip, especially for people with smaller hands.
"Once the writer in every individual comes to life (and that time is not far off), we are in for an age of universal deafness and lack of understanding."
(Milan Kundera, Book of Laughter and Forgetting, 1980)