The fact that what you are doing bothers you means you probably should stop. You may need guidance from a spiritual adviser. Remember no human being is perfect, and we all stray from time to time.
I will refrain from making off color remarks about your alias and your current dilemma, but you should know that there is often relief to be found from one's troubles in humor, or even just a nice long walk in the park where you have some time to think. Take your dog with you. He will enjoy the walk too.