I think real competition and training is needed; otherwise, it's like just reading about a gun and never shooting it.
The Taiwanese men who like guns are great at that; they know everything about every gun; except how it feels in your hands..
I think I want to train and dicipline my body and my mind; more then just learn to fight. That's just the added bonus; and why I am choosing this vs. like say swimming with my gf (although, trust me, women in bathing suits are more attractive then sweaty guys in gi's)
But I have come to some conclusions; I really want to learn to defend myself; I would rather brandish a gun and have the perp leave; but sometimes, that's not an option..
"An unarmed society is one that's ripe for tyranny and oppression."